Perceptions about myself on a sunny afternoon with coffee.
I’ll tell you a secret
When I’m sad and upset about something I sleep.
Yes, just be sad that I want to snuggle up to my blankets and my various pillows, and cry until I fall asleep.
I’ve been doing this since I was young, that’s where I feel safe.
I suppose I make the same association when it rains very heavily with thunder and lightning, you know.
Yes I am afraid of lightning and thunder I have heard millions of explanations of how it is unlikely that a lightning bolt falls in the middle of a city surrounded by buildings and parachutes.
But … I’m afraid … always with one exception.
When it rains a lot my fear blocks any rational thinking and I always imagine it is very likely that lightening will hit me and I will die,
so why not die warm in the warmth of my bed ?!
My refuge is similar to the embrace of a friend, comfortable, warm, shelter.
No music calms me any more, anyway, nor do I like to ruin a song with sad moments,
because the moments pass but whenever I listen to that song will remember him.
Not worth it !