You’re the worst thing that still exists in me.

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It’s been a while since you’ve been gone. Everyone says I should get over it, because it would not really work. And life does not wait, there is no button to pause and you can not return my love. How did I let it happen? I’ll write to you and take you out of my body. I think if you put everything on paper, there will be nothing left. I told you once, “I write to get the bad things out of me,” do you remember that? I still cry when it’s hard to endure things that I can not change and I can not understand. When you have so much to process that my head and my heart seem to explode. When your lack threatens the life I’ve struggled so hard to build. Right now my face is wet and some tears have wet the paper while I write this letter, even if you never read, I will write for you. This is my diary screaming.

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  1. This is very moving and sorrowful at the same time. It does help to write all your thoughts and feelings and get them out there. Thank you for sharing. xoxo

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    1. No doubt it is painful. But the pain has already been worse, I am in the process of healing this person that I wanted so well and that made me so bad. I have faith that soon I will remember only the good parts and I will be glad to have lived it, but I will not want to return. Thank you for commenting. XoXo.

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