Yeah, We already have a year !!!
Today I see the great changes that have happened to me all this time. I remember that I started this blog because I wanted to speak the language of a person that I liked a lot and wanted to be heard by her. Nowadays all this does not make much sense, because although I have tried very hard for this person, no effort of mine was recognized by her.
However, I have learned to express myself better and to put out everything that hurts me. And to like this universe a lot.
Share lots of things with you and listen to what you have to say is very good. I remember one of the things I said to this same person was “I write about bad things to get them out of me, about the good things I do not have as much urgency to write, because I want to prolong this feeling inside” on the occasion we talked about diaries.
I have a notebook that I write when no words would make sense to another person, when the anguish is so great that I could not express myself coherently. So I write and cry and I get lighter.
The text “see you in the future” was the first one I wrote here that I reported what I was really feeling and it helped me to understand what I was feeling. Today more than a year later, we are in the same moment, but the sensation is different. I am stronger, more determined, I know myself better and I understand what is good for me and I accept more easily that people should be left free.
Writing helped me to understand this and to see things as a whole and several comments from you comforted me, put a smile on my face, as well as the texts that I read of you. Many thanks to all of you who read, who respond, who comment, who enjoy. I love talking to you and discovering other amazing people who write amazing things and feel it too.